It’s normal to look back on your experiences, especially when a new year comes around. Usually I look back at these memories with fondness and gratitude, but something about this year was different. Don’t get me wrong, I’m still very thankful for the multitude of blessings that surrounded me in 2013, but when I took my trip down memory lane as the time kept ticking towards 12am, things just felt rather unsettling to me.
I did a
lot this past year and got put into many situations where I was kind of forced
to meet new people and branch out of my comfort zone. While that certainly wasn’t
easy for someone who is rather quiet and introverted like me, I couldn’t be
happier that I ended up in those circumstances. I had the privilege of meeting
people that I genuinely enjoyed. Even though I keep to myself more often than
not, I’d still say that I’m very
people-oriented and have a lot of positive things to say about those who I’ve
been close to for some time and even those who I was only introduced to for a
short while. Here’s where the unsettling part comes in.
I will
always be a firm believer in the idea that almost everyone we encounter is meant
to teach us something, but what never seems right is that they tend to leave
after the lesson is learned. I’d like to think that I don’t get attached
to people easily but when you you’re a naturally accepting and caring human
being, chances are your big heart has already made room for people you’re just
getting to know; and that can suck.
I know
that life never stays the same for long, but I hate the fact that I can come
across new, fun, and down-to-earth people all while growing accustomed to their
presence in as little as 2 days and then suddenly I’m never going to see them
again. It’s just something my mind likes to dwell on because I know not
everyone thinks this way; there are some people who don’t get sentimental at
all. It just starts a waterfall of questions in my head. "Do they even remember me?" “Do they ever think of
me now?” “Did they like me?” “Do they consider their time spent around me
good/bad/a waste?”
With a
new year just starting to bloom I know this is a terrible weakness to have. Ultimately
though, I feel like there’s something devastatingly beautiful about what I’ve
been describing in this post. People touch our lives all the time, whether we
care to admit it or not. Maybe time spent with people who impact your life in a
strong way like this, is not meant to be dissected or questioned.

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